Welcome 2012

I'm still in the midst of writing my letters to Adelle for months 8 and 9, but wanted to throw out a quick reflection on 2011...
2011 held a lot of change for me. Marriage. Moving across the globe. Motherhood. The loss of my sweet Merlin. With all that it brought anxiety, depression, and lots of emotional eating--all of the things I thought I had conquered! In the midst of all this upheaval I'm trying to be gentle with myself in these "regressions." I'm happy to report that going into 2012 I'm rounding the corner and feeling more myself again. Thankfully.

The last month in 2011 I had pretty much just left everything behind and was moving into a new life. This last month of 2012 I spent revisiting my old life.

I'm glad to have made the trip back to America. There are people there that are dear to my heart that I miss. But, I can say this:

I still have no doubts that all of my choices were the best ones for me. And, even with all the emotional upheaval, I feel deeply that it was all worth it. People at home asked me if I'm feeling at home in Australia. The weird part is that I still call Connecticut home because it's where I'm from, but Australia is home now. Truly. I don't know if I would have said that before my trip to Connecticut, but I can say it now without hesitation. No, I'm not completely settled in yet, but this is where my heart is.

 I have so much to be grateful for in this new year. I have so much to look forward to. Adelle is the joy of my life and watching her grow is a gift. I have a great support system in Paul and my in-laws. I'm getting to know people and slowly building friendships. I'm hoping to pick up a few hours a week of teaching yoga....and I'm excited to reconnect with that part of myself.

The last year went by in a bit of a haze, but I'm welcoming 2012 and all it has to offer with fresh bright eyes.